For the first time in my life, I feel completely ok with the thought that I may never get married. Most certainly not for a while (well, maybe I shouldn't say "most certainly," because God has a funny way of doing whatever he wants when you least expect it to happen).
Go ahead, gasp.
But now hear me out.
I think the world leads us to believe that marriage is the highest peak of the mountain, and that most of our striving is to reach that peak...to find "the one." Yes, marriage is a beautiful gift, but it is not the end all, be all.
How much energy have I spent thinking about boys, pursuing their admiration, and daydreaming about my future life when I should have been focusing on Christ and what He is calling me to do. Each one of us have been birthed with and by intention for God's kingdom. He has plans for us that will benefit his coming kingdom, and gives us a life most satisfying. And yet, I've ignored this truth time and time again.
Far too often, especially for my age group (as now is the time for the "first train" of marriage to go through), do we look to marriage for security. The fear of being alone drives so many of our lives, that we forget the Father's promise that we are never alone.
I fear that too many people throw in the towel on these dreams God has intentionally placed in each one of us, only to settle for potential security with another being. Now, I'm not hating on marriage because for many, God has given them that gift. I'm just realizing that it is ok to NOT be married, as per the road that God leads each of us down.
So for now, I have been given too much of an adventurous spirit to compromise or push open a door that has not yet presented itself. I have a desire to explore the world for all that it is, and to be able to go whenever I want is a gift I cherish.
Perhaps marriage is in my future, and I'll embrace that with arms wide open when it comes. But I won't make that my sole focus in living, or I'll cease to live at all.
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