Far too often I complain about people not taking an interest in me. I prefer to wait for others to engage in conversation with me before I will acknowledge them, and if that never happens, I find myself getting upset.
Funny, I've failed to look at it from the other side.
What if the people I meet are waiting on me to initiate something. I'm sure they want to feel that people are interested in their lives as well. Everyone is selfish with themselves and thinks that everyone else should act in the same way towards them.
Thats a lot of taking and not much giving.
Sure, I can blame my actions on me having a more introverted personality, but thats just taking the easy way out. I'm sorry for being so absorbed with myself that I've failed to see the needs of others, and that their needs are just like mine.
I want to be bolder in new relationships, not having the expectation of always having to be poured in to. A friend of mine mentioned the other day that there are just going to be some areas where you pour in way more than you'll ever get out. Not necessarily what we would like to happen, but it does all the same.
I apologize for seeming to stuck in my world that I don't engage myself in yours. I truly don't mean to be like that. I need to make more of a conscious effort to turn that habit around, which will be a bit of a challenge as I've discovered that I'm easily intimidated by people. I have another brilliant friend who told me that I can't be intimidated by others because there is simply no time. There's no time to be intimidated because there is an urgency to love.
An urgency to love.
No one walks around with a sign that says "I'm better than you," ok, maybe some people appear to. But God has created us all equally, and equally, He loves us to the highest of heights. So why should I give anyone a title of greater or lesser importance when it is not mine to give?
Sounds like the Enemy is trying to pull on my confidence. Well, I'm really not feeling that right now.
Not this time. God has bigger plans for me and in this moment, it starts with acknowledging people and loving them regardless of what is given back to me. God will fulfill every void I feel man has shorted me on, and twenty times over, at that.
You can't intimidate me any longer, I have an urgency to love you.
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