A Time to Be Selfish?

Today in class (yes, today is Labor Day, and I was in class because it's only an 8 week course), I was talking with two of my peers about all the work we have going on right now. And it's only the third week of class. It's an overwhelming amount that is going to take some incredible acrobatic skill to balance it all. But something that one of the girl's said really struck me. She said "college is the time to be selfish, it's the only time you can actually get away with doing whatever you really want."

Personally, I don't like the phrasing of this sentence, because I don't want to be selfish with my life, but rather giving and sharing of my life with others, and perhaps thats why I'm struggling so much with the course load I have now. It is not allowing me time to really invest in others lives like I truly enjoy doing. It's really only allowing time for me to increase my own academic strengths. Thats all fine and good, except I need a better balance and variety of life.

But back to being selfish. I suppose it is a true statement. Ultimately, right now I don't have anyone else to think about except myself. The activities and things I choose to partake in are really only going to affect me. Maybe some friends and family here and there indirectly, but for the most part, it's just me. I haven't come to a conclusion on how I feel about this season under that lighting. Like I said, I don't want to be selfish, but, it does make sense that this is time to really focus on who I am. And then again, thats why I've started writing this blog, so I can discover who I am. I'm really just not a fan of that word, "selfish."

But, maybe we need really do need this time to be selfish in our focus so we have a firm grasp of who we are before we get turned out to a world of established people.

Maybe I should stop blogging so late at night so my thoughts and processes might make a little more sense.

Anyway, just some bed time thoughts to think about :)