Rewind the Clock

Its that awkward era of life; I feel like I talk about it often.  I guess I just mostly realize it when I'm around my family. When I'm around them, I want everything to feel as it did 4 years ago. Four years ago, my life was much more intertwined with my family's.  They knew who my friends were in my stories, and they understood what was going on in general.  We were a tight family unit, and I'm desperately trying to reclaim that it seems.

But now, I live nine hours away.  Its hard for my family to understand my stories, or get it in its entirety because the characters involved are somewhat foreign to them.  My everyday life does not involve them, and sometimes I feel like I want it to more than they want to stay involved in mine.  Maybe they're just trying to give me freedom, but I want to bring them with me. My brother has a girlfriend now and I feel like I'm fighting to keep a decent relationship with him now.  I want things to go back to how it was when we would take family road trips and be forcibly cooped up together in one place for an extended period of time with nothing to take away from that family time.  But priorities change and life changes. And me? I guess I'm just trying to find where I belong.

I don't know how to adjust and be happy when I know what I loved so much before.  I want it all to stay the same, to be the way it was right before everything changed.

Go back time, go back. Rewind the clock and give me just a few more hours before the sun rises again.